Helpless

I'm helpless.  I've done all the calling, double-checking, follow-ups, etc I can do on this current case we're working on.  After receiving a few more details re: the birth mother & the baby, I was able to call those in to the AZ Child Protective Services to add to the info I already knew.  I made the lady go over in detail, twice, what I could now to keep this going forward.

• She is going to send an e-mail to another person in the department.  They will research to see if there is even an open case on this child(ren).
• If there is an open case, they will place a note on their file saying that we have called & shown an interest in adopting this child(ren).
• They will then see if a family member or the current foster family has any interest in adopting the child(ren).
• If not, then the case manager will contact us to begin proceedings for us to move forward with an adoption.
• Since we're out-of-state, we would have to have to travel to Phoenix to have a face-to-face meeting with the child to see if the child bonds with Jonathan & me & visa versa.
• Depending on certain details of the case, we may have a longer 'trial period' in which we would have temporary custody of the child(ren) for a few days, again testing to see if a bond is able to be formed.
• If all of the above works out, then the adoption process could start to become final, & the child(ren) would be permanently released to us, their new parents.

Seems like a lot of things that have to swing in our favor, right?  I know.  I feel pretty helpless beginning with Step 1-wait to see if anybody calls us.  We won't be notified at all if things end up going a different direction & we're out of the picture.  We'll only be notified if we ARE in the picture.  For those of you who know me, I REALLY DO NOT LIKE talking on the phone.  That being said, I have NEVER BEEN SO ANXIOUS for my cell phone to ring.  How in the world am I supposed to cope for the next several days or weeks while I wait for my phone to ring to tell me that we're in consideration to be parents again?